"Split Wide Open!"

Don't look at me with open eyes
it's dark here and you can't see,
Don't reach out for me with your hands
the distance between like a fathomless sea.

Don't call out my name, i'm lost
in vaccum, your voice can't travel
Don't even try walking ahead
I'm in my closed shell....

Why do I feel emptiness inside?
What is it that i'm trying to hide?
there is something I'm running from
Why is my heart 'Split Open Wide'?

What is the cause of my grief
Do i really want to stay alone?
If I don't need anyone then,
why in my slumber do i moan?

The storm came and blew me away
and how many storms since that day,
my eyes flooded,I shake with tremors
I don't even know how to pray.

I ran and ran and ran and ran
and ran until my legs felt weak,
until i reached my break-even point
the time when I felt like a freak.

I looked, I touched, I called out
everywhere-as blank as space,
I got up determined not to give up
and I designed my own place.

My own world, my private kingdom
I'm the queen, all my slaves,
a refuge for a tormented heart
my fantasy ain't naive.

....I'm moving on in a cheerful manner
don't bother about my left or right,
I'm fine, in my world i do wonders
but still I feel a void inside!